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25 Random Things About Me

1. The smell of coffee is like perfume to me. I love walking down the coffee aisle in grocery stores that have the grinders where you can ground your own beans. I love writing in coffee shops all day and the way my bag smells afterwards.

2. When I was around 8 years old I used to record myself reading pieces of the newspaper, and as part of it I’d give movie reviews though I hadn’t actually seen the movies. So I would give suggestions based on who was in it and what I thought the plot was from the trailers I’d seen. I was into recording everything, snippets of conversations, commercials on TV, the radio. I’d walk around with a bulky tape recorder my grandparents gave me just recording life as it happened. I still have a few of these tapes.

3. I love going to the movies. There’s something about sitting in the dark with a bunch of people, experiencing the escape of a film together that I love. I’ve only walked out of a few movies even though I saw some terrible films. One of them I can’t remember the name of but it was a werewolf movie that was just awful. In college, I had a friend who worked at a movie theater and used to give me passes for movies. I saw some of the best and worst films of the 90’s and early 2000’s thanks to him.

4. I'm not really a morning person, but scheduling has required me to attempt to do better at mornings. As a lifelong night owl, I have trouble with mornings. I need time to lay in bed, possibly go back to sleep for 10 minutes, complain, stare at the ceiling, whatever. Then I need coffee. About 20 minutes after coffee, I can manage full sentences.

5. I think octopi are both creepy and cool creatures. They seem almost weirdly pre-historic to me and there's something about them that I'm drawn to. I learned recently that the plural of octopus is actually octopods from the original Greek root of the word.

6. I have no interest in sky-diving. Ever. Or bungee jumping or doing anything where I have to jump from any kind of height. At all. I have a slight fear of heights.

7. Every time I lock the door, I do a silly dance or some weird movement so that when I am anxious, later, about whether I locked the door, I can say to myself, “Remember, you did that silly dance?”  (I read about the benefits of doing these kinds of things to stave off anxiety, but can’t remember where).

8. When I was a kid, I wanted to be a race-car driver, and then a sportswriter. For a long time I wanted to be a sportswriter, but somewhere along the way I decided I didn't want to limit myself to journalistic-style writing or to sports. Still, I was a huge fan of Robin Roberts and Linda Cohn who were the women of ESPN, during my girlhood. Now, there are many women who report on sports and I think it's amazing that there is a new generation of women voices in sports. Not nearly enough, of course, but still some progress is being made.

9. I most admire kindness, intelligence, a sense of humor in other people. I despise lack of self-awareness, ego, and pretentiousness.

10. A line from one of my favorite poems and that I use as a kind of mantra: Bukowski's The Laughing Heart: “your life is your life. know it while you have it. you are marvelous the gods wait to delight in you”.
It's also the only poem I still have memorized.

11. I have a signed copy of To Kill a Mockingbird that my father gave me. It's one of my favorite things I own.

12. My favorite food involves feta or goat cheese. I love mediterranean flavors and I really love cheese.

13. I lived with my grandmother and great-grandmother throughout parts of my life, most significantly in college and my Master’s program. It remains one of the most formative and singularly defining experiences of my life. Gran died 2 years ago and I feel the grief so acutely some days that it takes my breath away.

14. Something I wish I learned sooner:  What others think is not nearly half as important as what you think of yourself. Also: Kindness is better than whatever not being kind gets you.

15. I love watching hairstyle tutorials even though I can rarely recreate the look in the video.

16. When I am at my most stressed, I involve myself with redesigning my blog. Also, I bake, usually for other people.

17. Food is one my love languages. There is nothing more rewarding to me than cooking food that others enjoy.

18. I am an ENFP and 7 on the Enneagram.

19. I quit drinking soda/pop over 10 years ago. But I love coffee, ridiculously so. My favorite drink is Starbucks flat white or Nitro Cold Brew with Almond Milk. I want to experiment cooking with coffee.

20. I love soft t-shirts. I cannot buy or wear a t-shirt that is rough in any way.

21. I like dresses but I rarely wear them, anymore.

22. I have been making monthly playlists on Spotify since 2011. Each year I pull together and end of year playlist based on each month’s songs. As a kid of the 80’s I find such joy in playlist-making without having to wait to hear a song on the radio and record it. I loved making mixtapes but playlists are so much easier. I enjoy cultivating soundtracks for my days, for my life, really.

23. I’m an Aquarius, which if you spend more that 12 minutes with me you’ll likely figure out or I will tell you or you will ask. :)

24. I worked at Disneyworld in college.

25. Though I feel the need for roots, I also need to be able to travel, to see new places and experience something new.

random, and no longer secret things about me

Since my little wordpress meters tell me I have some new blog readers and because it's the ending of my summer and I'm feeling overwhelmed by my calendar and to-do list, which of course I thought I'd have more time to accomplish, I decided to repost some of my previous posts that I really love or ones that I thought might help new readers get to know me. This is a post from two summers ago, June 2013. And has been updated to reflect current truths.

1. I read something about my Aquarian self every day. Sometimes this means reading my twittascope, which I highly recommend, by the way. But sometimes it means going deeper, reading detailed horoscopes or profiles.

2. I believe we are complex arrangements of where we have been, who we have met, things we have seen, lessons we learn, and things we want to do and see.

3. I have never seen the film Citizen Kane. I have seen parts of it, but never watched the whole thing from start to finish.

4. The only Jane Austen book I have finished is Sanditon and that was for a class I took in my Master’s program. I just can’t get into it. Also, not a big fan of Bronte’s Wuthering Heights, though I did finish it.

5. I desperately want to go to Ireland.

6. I think sheep are really cool. (Though that isn’t why I want to go to Ireland).

7. I find it fascinating how we, as humans, adapt to situations, locales, routines. I found my old journals from when I was in England and it struck me how everything seems so amazing when you visit somewhere, the whole tourist on vacation thing, but when you begin a kind of daily life in a place, it becomes something else. That transition can be challenging.

8. Which reminds me that being mindful is a practice. We have to practice awareness of the cool and great things in our lives every day. Sure, sometimes it feels like it’s easier when there are actual castles and historic sites and things we’ve never seen before, but appreciating what you have and where you are is important, too.

9. I have a secret desire to attend small town festivals.

10. Sometimes when I’m having a really tough or crappy day, I think, “Well, at least I’m not living in theSupernatural/Lost Girl/Buffy universe, fighting some kind of weird demon/fae/vampire or trying to prevent the impending apocalypse.”

11. I didn’t drink coffee regularly until I was in my mid-twenties and in my Master’s program. Now, I can’t survive without at least one cup a day.  (This could also be because I gave up soda a year ago, but still need the caffeine).

12. I have been blogging, in some form, for over a decade.

13. Even though it is a completely manufactured and unreal flavor, I love blue-raspberry.

14. I oscillate between the fear of missing out on things and the desire to relax at home.

15. I have no interest in sky-diving. Ever.

16. I do, however, want to zip line, but somewhere cool. And also safe-ish. Maybe. I'm rethinking this now.

17. I'm always building a soundtrack or playlist in my head. 

18. I'ma  bit of a music snob. 

19. If I could play any instrument it would be the harmonica. Or spoons. Both of which fit in your pocket.

20. When I finished reading, Never Let Me Go  by Kazuo Ishiguro, I was really sad because I would never be able to read it for the first time again. I also felt that way about The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera. (Please do not see either film before you read the books, if you are interested. In fact skip Never Let Me Go’s film altogether).

21. I like to talk through my ideas, and I thrive off of conversation, connection, collaboration.

22. But I recharge like an introvert, alone and in the quiet.

23. I adore handwriting, though I think my own is terrible. I love handwritten notes, cards, fonts that look like handwriting.

24. If I were to go back to school or undertake serious study in something, I would want to study the brain, maybe neuroscience.

25. I smile a lot. Though I can be way too serious for my own good, little things make me happy, so I smile. I don't always notice I am smiling until someone smiles back or I see my own reflection.

26. I love watching TV series, marathon-style, over weeks and months at a time. I have a Gilmore Girlsmarathon every year, usually in the Summer. I have also watched the entirety of Sex and the City more than once, though I exclude the films. I’ve seen every episode (except the newest season) of Supernatural at least 4 times if not more. I own all 3 of those series but have watched a lot of other series, including LOST on Netflix.

27. Every time I lock the door, I do a silly dance so that when I am anxious, later, about whether I locked the door, I can say to myself, “Remember, you did that silly dance?”  (I read about the benefits of doing these kinds of things to stave off anxiety, but can’t remember where).

28. The sound of a key turning in a lock kind of scares me. I don’t know if it’s the anticipation or if I’ve seen one too many horror films. Even when I open my own door, I hate the sound of metal against the lock.

29. Actually, I am not a fan of the sound of metal, in any form, crashing, clanging, or even magnets against metal. There must be some pitch it hits that bothers me.

30. Sometimes I wish time travel were possible, so I could send a letter to myself through time and it would say, “Chill the f’ out.” And also, “You are amazing. You could have so much happiness if you could believe that.” And definitely, “It’s going to be okay.”

31. I have dreamt in black and white, and in French. It wasn’t the same dream, thankfully. I have also had a dream narrated by Bill Kurtis (a CBS news anchorman and also narrator of Cold Case Files and other similar shows). It was a really weird dream, obviously, and involved zombies and fire. ( I almost wrote immolation instead of fire, and then wondered if that was the correct word so I looked it up, in an actual dictionary, and it wasn’t exactly so I left it at fire).

32. I am a terrible singer. And tone deaf.

33. I get nervous on the first day of class every semester, every class. It’s also one of my favorite days, when everything is new and you have a blank slate, especially in freshmen classes.

34. I have a school supply/office supply fetish. Post-it notes and pens. Blank journals!

35. I hate when people ask me my favorite book/song/movie of all time. I cannot choose. I don't like to choose. There's way too much pressure. Although most of the time, I say Mary Shelley's Frankenstein.