new habits

One of the things I've been trying to do lately is create better habits, mostly better eating habits but also better thinking habits, as well. I am not one of those people who have struggled with their weight. This doesn't mean I've been healthy but rather that my weight was never a concern to me. I have a pretty good sense of who I am, an overall positive view of myself. I never worried about what I ate before. I enjoyed my body, its curves and extra fleshy bits. No one I was with ever complained about my looks. I don't work in an industry where my worth is based on my appearance and I put a lot of energy into my mind. So, I never struggled with my weight. I accepted. I ate what I wanted and however much I wanted. That isn't to say I haven't dieted or tried to work out and do yoga and be healthier in general. I have tried and then I got busy and broke all those good habits and made excuses and stopped thinking about it.

May 1st I decided to quit drinking soda. Simultaneosly, M and I started talking about eating better and paying attention to what we ate. We bought a scale, downloaded a calorie counter app and began taking our health seriously.

I can you tell that I already feel better, happier. Not yet lighter, but better.

I have been reading about habits lately, about why and how they form, what they mean and how to change them. One suggestion is that to really change a habit, you have to make it public, talk about it, create accountability in a variety of ways.

I'm trying to do that with this post.

I don't want to be obsessed about a number on a scale or the numbers of calories I'm eating but I need to think about food differently and I need to form new habits. This doesn't mean that I'm never going to eat Creme Brule or cupcakes or chocolate. But it might take me longer to decided if it's worth it and I'll definitely be more aware and appreciative as I eat it.