you might just let it go
I feel like my thoughts are really jumbled lately. I begin to write about music I'm listening to and then I start thinking about how I need to decide what books to order for next semester and how long my to do list seems. I have no space to think, to breathe, to shout. So, I go back to the music because it makes me feel like myself again. It makes me feel alive and raw.
I've been using Spotify, which I am obsessed with now, thanks to M. It's easy to discover and play music through the desktop application; there's a facebook and last.fm app as well. If you click the link, you'll see all the stuf I've been listening to lately including The Cults, Bird and Bee and Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros. I'm also covering music and pop culture in composition, which has been a lot of fun. Today, we're talking about the theme of "Home" represented in various songs throughout culture.
I'm working on an example for the next project I've assigned called "Soundtrack of your Life". I've written a lot about music on this blog and I'm interested to see where this prompt takes me at this point in my life, with all the turmoil and chaos that's been happening around me.
This morning I woke up in a great mood. I don't know that I've felt this good in a very long time. It's finally feeling and looking like Fall with oranges and reds. Tomorrow is October 1st and October is my favorite month. So many exciting and good things are happening. I hope I can maintain belief in them and not let my fear get the best of me. I've realized how much I allow worry to hold me back. I said in a previous post that I wanted to marvel at things. This means taking risks. It means publishing unfinished blog posts and jumbled thoughts. It means letting go of resentment about being the bigger person. But most of all it means believing that there are enough good and true and amazing things waiting for me to discover them.