open heart

You know those things you always say you're going to do and never get around to? I have a running list of them, things I periodically challenge myself to do that somehow either never get started or fall apart and never get completely followed through. These are usually small things like: reading more, taking a pottery class, going on hikes, etc. On a few of the blogs I read, I kept seeing sidebar ads and posts about various e-courses. Either the timing was never right, the class had already started or I felt like I didn't have the time to devote to the course or I didn't feel particularly drawn to the topic, for whatever reason.

A few weeks ago, I was reading some of my many sources of inspiration which mentioned the e course Mondo Beyondo. It kept coming into my view and since I'm trying to pay better attention to the universe's message, I figured I should at the very least look more closely at what the course was about. Once I did, I felt like I'd been pulled toward it for a reason, that maybe this time I should follow through. So, I signed up quickly before I could talk myself out of it.

I'm looking forward to learning some things about myself. I've written before about the melancholy that set in after finishing the Ph.D, about how I feel unsure about what I'm supposed to do next, what goals I want to set. Sure, I know there are things I want to accomplish but these aren't big picture goals, no mondo beyondo dreams. Getting a Ph.D. is such a huge part of who I am that it's been hard to push myself in new directions. And it's no secret that I've felt really lost recently. The course comes along at a perfect time, for many reasons.

All I have to do now is trust my open heart.