reverb10: silence is easy
December 19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)
I did find healing this year, pretty significantly but I have talked about it in previous reverb posts and other posts on the blog and I'm not sure if there are ways to say it better.
The process was certainly gradual, taking almost 20 years. I'd taken big steps in the past through therapy, writing, advocacy, volunteering. But what I really needed was to get to a place where I could let go.
Still, I have a lot of self-doubt and insecurity and a tendency to believe the worst. There are more wounds to heal; it's clear.
A couple of people have tweeted lately that reverb is becoming a bit repetitive in its prompts and I do think that many of the prompts are along similar lines and that when you're looking back at big events in the year, and you're talking about souldeep moments and trying to encapsulating all of the moments into words your thoughts seem to go to the same topics. So, I do agree that there isn't as much variety as when you write about the best books or the best car ride or favorite word or TV show from the year. Reverb's purpose is about "reflecting on this year and manifest what’s next. It’s an opportunity to retreat and consider the reverberations of your year past, and those that you’d like to create in the year ahead."
I think that reflecting on books, movies, films, car rides, meals can be just as fruitful as thinking about what you tried, or friendship that changed your perspective or anything else we've written about.
It's funny that the reverb10 prompt from December 20 is about avoidance:
– Beyond Avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?) (Author: Jake Nickell)
because what I'm avoiding is that prompt.