there is chaos; there is change; there is cheesecake

I've made some changes to the blog. I am getting used to the redesign. I'll try not to immediately revise it. I added a "Comps" tag and one called "Lyrics". I added a lyrics tag because while updating my Ipod and looking for album titles I stumbled across this blog which I thought was really cool but hasn't been updated in a few months. So I thought I'd do something similar and include a weekly lyrics post. I listen to a lot of music on a daily basis. There's almost always a running soundtrack to my day. I thought it'd be fun to share. Also, I added a recent tracks list powered by lastfm as a way for readers, all 10 of you, to see what I'm listening to. So, those are the changes...

With M's family today coming home from lunch, someone noticed the Steak N Shake sign that simply read, There is cheesecake. Such a matter of fact marketing campaign.

The tag for my life of late would read, There is chaos. Well, that's pretty much been true of all of my life. I don't know what happens but turmoil seems to always be involved from the inside out. I have tried to figure out how to find a calm within the chaos. I have tried to figure out how to slow down, how to think before I speak, how to listen. It's not going so well.

I feel sometimes as if I don't know how to be. My head is always going. Relaxing is difficult for me, which is why I like TV and movies; they take me out of myself. And I need to get out as often as possible. Believe me.

This semester I have been incredibly selfish in many ways. I have been singularly focused, which might be good for exams but it ain't good for relationships. So where is the balance? How do I learn to get out of my head often enough to notice what is going on around me? Recently Amy posted about super-hero names. Mine would be Oblivious Girl.

With the end of a year comes the act of looking back and then forward. So my resolution for the coming year is to pay more attention to the outside world, to be less oblivious.

For now, though, at least there is cheesecake.