mental states

I sit for my English Studies exam on Wednesday. I am not dreading it. I am not excited by it, just ready for all of the work I've done to culminate in something. I hope I'm prepared as everyone around me thinks I am.  The waiting is getting to me. I'm trying not be so consumed but god, it's difficult. So instead I am trying to focus my energy on the exam in productive ways. The only thing I can really do is try to be in a positive mental state.

I feel like I have no time for anything else including teaching. I wonder if my students feel as if I'm losing my mind. Today I felt very out of it. Blah, blah, blah. But the semester is winding down and i think they feel the same so trying to generate discussion at this point is difficult anyway. At least the final projects sound interesting. I had a few students ask what I was teaching next semester which made me feel good. So, all is not horribly lost.

It's times like these I wish I could meditate.